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I wasn't planning on making my journal friends only, but people have been stealing my icons all over the web. I will make my icons public for a week then lock them. Comment to be added.



Ok so I have become totally lax on this, mainly because of my working so much I haven't posted many graphics, but past ones are still FO, so friend me if you want. I love to talk to people in common...oh and sorry before hand about bitching about my life

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Best:
1. "Sunshine" by Robin McKinley
2. "The Name of the Wind" by Patrick Rothfuss
3. "Empress" by Karen Miller

These three books are my favorite books of all time (so far). All three of these books are dark and gritty. The way that they are written has a way of pulling you in and becoming these characters, although I am convinced that Robin McKinley was stalking me when she wrote the character of Sunshine [Rae]. They are all pure emotion.

Worst:
"The Old Man and the Sea" by Ernest Hemingway

So this is pretty much the only book that I have read all the way through, that I have absolutely hated. You can argue with me and say that it is a classic or whatever, but it was so boring. I could care less about an old man on a boat who caught a shark and gets lost at sea. I read the book about six times in a row, and I pulled the biggest bullshit out of my ass ever (which got me an A by the way) but I could not figure out why the book is so praised. Anyways, this is the worst book I have ever read.

Today I turn 23. 23 seems like a random age where you are stuck between wanting to grow up and join the real world and trying to take a step back and relive your teenage years over again. I want both, but I don't know how. I can tell you this though, I never thought that my life would be the way that it is right now. I am a college graduate, living at home with my parents in a town I couldn't wait to leave. I'm stuck at a job I said I would never go back to and a second one that laid me off. I am reaching for grad school and whenever I actually grasp it, it slips through my fingers due to the fact that I have no money to pay or something goes wrong with the processing of whatever bullshit they throw my way.



I have also learned and realized things about myself that will be useful in the upcoming years as well. The first thing is that my family is everything. Yes, i do have friends that are outside of my blood family, but I compare my family life to lets say the Winchesters of Supernatural fame. My sister and I have a Dean and Sam relationship to the max. Yes we have lived our seperate lives, but it is never complete without each other. Things go haywire without the backup and support that we need from the other. It is a strange relationship, I guess, when you look at how other siblings act, but I like our way better.



I also realized that I am very well liked. I know that this sounds weird and it seems like something that I should have noticed before, but I didn't, even in high school when I was a part of several different groups and hung out with all sorts of people. This realization solidified the fact that I am a natural leader. I always thought that, but mainly because I am a little bossy and arrogant and stubborn and I need to get my way, but then I realized that people actually like me, because those annoying personallity traits aren't thrown in their faces unless need be. I am naturally nice to everybody and I figure out ways to get people to talk and break their shells a little bit, even though I feel trapt inside one sometimes when it comes to guys, but right now I could care less about that. I also realized that I need to be back in school. I need to be out of the working world, because this is not what I am ment to do. I cannot be a person that sits at a desk all day. I need to be out there, doing something, anything. This life that I am living now is driving me crazy. I need to start fresh, in a new place, and I don't care what it takes. The only thing I won't give up is my family. It would be one thing if I didn't have a little sister. She is six and I won't let her grow up not knowing me like some of my friends went through with their much older siblings. It's not right or fair.



I start my own personal new years on my birthday. This is when I plan out my goals for the year, so here is what I have so far:



1. Get into graduate school for archaeology. (Hopefully ENMU)
2. Move out west (hopefully while being in grad school) and find a job in my field (I'm already a certified CRM archaeologist, there just aren't any opportunities in New York all year round)
3. Lose some weight (I have gained some in my sight depression of being back home and I would like to go back to my undergrad weight.)
4. Read the books on the LOST Book Club (Kind of silly, I know, but reading is a stress relaxer for me)
5. Convince my father to move with the family out west. (My sister and I are going together. My mom plans on going a little after us with the 6 year old, but my dad is highly against the move for some reason and I don't want Elena to be without dad. It would be wrong. My brother is going to stay in New York for a while with my aunt and step-uncle, which is an amazing opportunity for him that I hope he doesn't pass up)
6. Convince DK to move out west with us. (She is one of my closest friends and practically my sister. She has nothing left for her in New York, especially after I leave. I think that she is scared of not finding a job when she leaves but she has a degree in hotel and tourisum so he can get a job in a hotel or airport or whatever so she will be fine. I think that I bring up her moving out with with me once a day. It might sink in soon enough. Cassie [my sister] has one of her friends, Brian, moving with us to study archaeology as well)



That's all I have so far. There will be more I am sure.



So, of course, I am at work on my birthday, so I have a meme to pass the time...



( long meme )

In honor of Star Trek 2009 coming out on dvd I made a picspam of my favorite BFFLs ever: Captain James T Kirk and Dr. Leonard "Bones" McCoy. I love their relationship. Their personalities balance each other perfectly and these pictures and quotes show that. Yay! So enjoy!


( Kirk and Bones: The Epic Friendship )

This week has been good to me...maybe because it has gone by so quickly lol. First off I fixed my internet/bank problem. My internet provider had been charging me wrong so they are refunding the money back into my account which means bye bye bank fees!!! I can't wait to close my account! I also got my student loans postponed again so I don't have to pay $400+ a month, which I totally can't afford. Tuesday Star Trek came out on dvd, which is always epic. There will be a picspam, by me, on the beginning of the epic friendship of Kirk and McCoy. I made it yesterday but I was too tired to post it. And today even though I have to work from 11:30-8:00, I'm seeing New Moon at 10:00 so yay! Next week should be good too. My sister is coming home tuesday so we can figure out how to get to New Mexico by next fall. Then Thursday is Thanksgiving which obviously means we are going to the movies. Not sure if we should see Planet 51 or Old Dogs. Both have Justin Long in it. One has The Rock and the other one has Seth Green singing to a gorila. Such a hard choice!

Just to celebrate my happy week, a shipper meme!

( shipper memes are hot! )

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I stole this from cifan70

( yay for boring work! )

I guess I don't watch as much tv as I thought...

First I would like to tell you that I'm sorry for rambling all this on here, but it needs to get out of me.

So these past couple days have been mostly crap. It started when I found out that my bank account was over drawn. It turns out that the company where we get our internet from took money out of my account for the bill without notifying me and therefore had no permission to do so and because of this I kept using my card with no idea that I had no money on it. It's not like I don't have the money to pay the bill, I just hate banks and I don't like having my money in them, especially when they don't tell you that you have no money in the account and let you use the card to buy a $2 drink and have to pay the bank back $40 because of it. ASSHOLES!

Then yesterday was good. I got to go see ANBERLIN! I love that band soooo much! I still can't hear very well, but it was totally worth it.

Today I found out that one of my jobs is relocating to a different city at the end of the year, which means I need to find a new job, because if I just had my second job I would not be able to pay any bills. Its getting close to christmas, so I could find some part time retail job for the mornings. I think I will be okay, but I'm going to miss the money

So my life is so craptastic...meme time

( yay meme )